I don’t even have any regular friends and wouldn’t even begin to know how to make one.

I used to have a lot of friends, then I got clean.

I’m just not good at talking in that perspective. I can talk about specific topics but seem to lack the ability for small talk that making friends seems to require. In the past 6 years I thought I made a friend once, we worked together for a while and would talk a couple times a day, I was a little more advanced in my career so I would often help her with projects/teach her stuff, I even opened up a bit and let out my weird thoughts occasionally. It was good, then one day she just stopped responding.

I’m very content with having my wife and son as my best friends, but an actual friend would be nice.