A few days ago i made a post about me starting working at a factory, grad has been very kind in providing messages of support and tips on how to deal with physical exhaustion and keeping healthy.
today, i don’t know what to do or to think, im one week in and seriously thinking in quitting, can’t take anymore, not so much about physical exhaustion, but mentally, even cried in the bathroom today.
and that is what is bothering me, how to come to terms with being so weak. im not trying to make anyone fell pity or something, especially when we still have colonies where things are hardcore and palestinians getting massacred.
like, idk what to do, i can’t do mental work because i can’t get a fucking job in it, and I’m not handling physical work, and confused about how being weak and not even capable of taking care of myself and handle a job, and be useful in a revolution or be up to the same level of many brave people fighting for the rights to exist, or something as simple as following party discipline.
sometimes i which i could just cease to exist, that way would stop being dead weight and not smudge the good name of our comrades.
edit: i am really moved by your kindness, i will answer each soon.
This isn’t down to you - A good percentage of modern day labour positions are absolutely soul-crushing, other employees tend to only survive it via years of practice deadening their own souls. I once got promoted and then quit my job one month later because dealing with management types absolutely ruined me, it took three weeks before I realised I was drinking every day just to survive. Thankfully I was in a vaguely financially able position to leave that job.
Whatever you decide to do, I hope you do what’s best to take care of yourself
Please be assured that we are proud to have you as a comrade.
first, thank you very much from your message, it helps a lot.
i’m thinking of quitting too, still have some money left from my previous job, that i was saving to buy a house.
i’m very used to insane deadlines, being pushed around by higher ups and whatnot, but i’m good at some stuff and always managed somehow, this time it is physical work and there is this annoying guy that isn’t even a higher up, a lowly employee like me, but like to bosses everyone around, people hate him, even from different parts of the factory, i’m also very bad at handling people, and get pushed around by this dude and he is major part of why i’m down.
i was talking to my dad, he said there was someone just like that in his time, lowly employee that works his ass off and likes to boss people around and gave me tips on how to handle, although not sure i will be able to carry forth with what he said, which is basically tell him to fuck off, especially when he is the one tasked to showing me the rope.