Xmas, new year, valentine’s… Seems like the festivities are there just to remind me how much I failed as an adult man incapable of getting company. It’s been over a decade since I’ve felt this way and nothing changes.
Alcohol and porn has lost its charm over the years.
Have you tried therapy? Judging by the comments in here, you sound depressed. And not without reason! Therapy can really help.
being depressed then vs. now
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R5D8zKAwyIE