I have strictly instructed my family, including my wife, that if I ever develop alzheimers I want to be euthanized. If I am sufficiently lucid at the point of diagnosis I will have no problem overdosing on something and going out in peace.

“I can’t install an app because a dependency depends on another dependency that I already have installed but in ever so slightly the wrong way, but I have another app installed which depends on this dependency being installed the way it is now, so I’ll have to compile the app from source instead and tweak the config file to work with my version of this dependency, but I also can’t compile the app because of the dev environment dependencies.”

Operating systems are for casuals. My user interface is Assembly.

Install gentoo

It’s constant and relentless. I am what some people call “gifted” but it never really feels that way. I have a good job that bores me to death and a battle so hard all day to make it work. I’m good at lots of different things, from programming, to music production, to writing, to building things, but I can’t devote any meaningful amount of time to any of them, and I neglect all the important aspects of my life. My physical and mental health are fucked, I’m in debt for no good reason, and at this point I think my adhd meds make it worse, but if I don’t take them I’m basically in a comatose state. It’s honestly no wonder that we’re statistically likely to die 10 years earlier than average.