I had a situation that lasted for almost a year. The female was at least 10 years younger than me. She had what I perceived as a perfect body. Not overweight but also she didn’t have that concentration camp look of thinness that so many women seem to strive for.
She was happily married as I was. She was a really nice person. She was also intelligent and very good at her job which, for me, made her even more attractive.
I knew my thoughts were all fantasies because she surely considered me an old man. While still attractive I was certainly too old for her.
At meetings or even at group after work drinks I was constantly thinking about how much I would love to fuck her. I was memorized by her tits which were just the right size. When she wore low necklines her chevage drove me wild. And it was clear that her tits were natural. You can always tell the fake ones because the top edges of them just don’t look natural. I would have been have to squeeze and lick them knowing I wasn’t going to encounter a buried bag of saline.
She had a cute but not annoying female voice and I would imagine her saying, “you know from the first time I saw you I have wanted to fuck you”
There were many times as I was in the middle of dreaming about having her bent over and fucking her that a meeting would end. I would then have to reach down and move my stiff cock behind my thigh to avoid having everyone see my hardon as I rose from my seated position.
Thankfully after about a year she deservedly went onto bigger and better things at another company in a different state.
It’s normal to find coworkers attractive.
It’s not normal to obsess to this level. Get some self control.