This is a common occurrence lol
Goodnight all! I’m not particularly tired, mostly just done with the day and want to go to bed to kind of retreat into my personal space a bit. Pleasant dreams.
Goodnight :)
Goddang it. Slept from 2pm to 8pm.
Fucking up my sleep pattern! 💀
Tonight’s wave:
Good swim.
I like this one. Has Interstellar vibes. 🌊👩🚀
Hahaha. At the other place they were discussing cutlery drawer order. Knives, forks etc. Pffft. That topic was so yesterday. We are trendsetters people.
I am wrecked for today. I have no more going up and down stairs in me.
but this house is so nice
I have views of trees beyond my terrace and out the windows, not walls. It’s quiet. It smells nice here. It’s big and roomy and easy to live in.
Crickets loud, sky pretty.
Less than two weeks of daylight saving left. I’m going to take some evening walks while I can.
Started placement today (kids were on an excursion yesterday) and I still don’t really know how to feel. The first lesson was with a CRT who had some science background so she still winged it, but told everyone that I would be teaching with her, even though I’m meant to just be observing. I ended up helping some kids out in the end whilst attempted to do the teaching. Some of the kids in the class have aspirations like sport and the arts, and instantly act out because they’ve associated the class with boredom. The biggest thing I took away from today is that just these kids showing up is enough. The school is aware of what these kids want to do, and give them the absolute bare minimum, like a worksheet to fill in to pass the entire unit.
I have to brush up on my content knowledge as well, but that will come when I start planning lessons. I hope.
I’ve got until next Monday to decide if I want to drop out of the course without financial penalty. I still don’t really know, because it’s only been one day, but I’m just trusting that things will figure themselves out as they go along.
how can you not know how to feel
just feel your feelings as they come with your experiences, don’t think about feelings in advance
seems to me you are doing awesome, you like what you do, you are very sensitive to the kids and their needs and capabilities
I think the kids are going to see how good you are and will be aces 🙂
I don’t know how to feel about my decision.
Thanks Seagoon :)
hugs
what are you feeling?
You can have more than one feeling at the same time.
Uncertain and fearful :)
But I’ve done quite a few exercises on tolerating uncertainty with my psych e.g. reminding myself that I can cope, observing emotions.
Thanks for checking in.
I’m not sure why you were paired with a CRT, you’re supposed to have a teacher who works there because they’ll end up evaluating you and also mentoring you as well.
The thing about CRT is that kids/students will act differently to a CRT, especially one they’ve not had before as the students will try and push the boundaries to see how far they can go.
Anyway I’m a little bit sad that you hadn’t gotten the proper set up to experience it properly and you only have a short time to make a decision.
Exactly! The mentors I’m meant to have are on LSL so I think I will ask another teacher in the staff room if I can observe their class.
This might not be too helpful but you could reach out to your uni for advice perhaps.
I’m not really sure of the right channels to go through but I can ask some friends tomorrow if you’d like.
Google photos keeps sending me notifications about when Gibson arrived.
That centre photo is so adorable.
I fail to see the problem here
Considering the possibility my neighbour (not that one) is a Mech warrior. Their staircase tread is quite something. Feeling like i’m not spending enough time with the cats, we seem to distribute ourselves around this house very differently
alright. Van sorted (not cheaply, but sorted). Some of the gear has arrived including some all important poles but a lot of the other essentials (like waterproof mattress protectors to protect bed in the event of a wet packup) are enroute. And the nice to haves (new kettle, sheets, chopping board, dish drainer) are still awaiting shipping dates. Thinking this might be a very bare bones dry run this weekend.
CEO, can’t you just buy big jars of sambal oelek for the man. Or isn’t that strong enough?
It’s not strong enough.
🫠
Yeah.
If the dude is eating carolina reapers like grapes, I’m afraid it isn’t.
I think I nearly got scammed on ebay. Bought some furniture but they had strange messaging, only very late at night
they did not give me the information I wanted to pick it up but demanded codes that would enable them to tell ebay the transaction was completed. I even asked 3 days. No information.
I cancelled and got my money back. Then they send me a message like 2 minutes later and they were very angry.
But they did not lose any money. They still have their items.
the fact they were very angry makes me think that yes, this was a scam. Plus they called me a spammer. yeah, as if spammers pay money.
It was 1,000,000% a scam.
my scamdar was working right then
but I did not expect that scam at all
Please, report them to ebay. My mum is gullible as fuck for this shit. She’ll hand out verification Sms codes to bloody anyone.
I did report them
Bleahhhh took today off on leave to try and squeeze out the last of uni fieldwork but nope spent most of my time driving, still a long way to go :( as the days progress my results are starting to look more and more sus… the angle of the sun is really messing around with it I think.
Friday looks like my last chance entirely. Another leave day I’ll have to burn unless I make up for it next week. No way I’ll finish everything. I’ll have to do my best to cover as much data as possible. And then the mad, intense, insane 2 months of data processing and WRITING commences. I really ought to book in some kind of treat for the end of the whole damn thing
good luck 🙂
