Started placement today (kids were on an excursion yesterday) and I still don’t really know how to feel. The first lesson was with a CRT who had some science background so she still winged it, but told everyone that I would be teaching with her, even though I’m meant to just be observing. I ended up helping some kids out in the end whilst attempted to do the teaching. Some of the kids in the class have aspirations like sport and the arts, and instantly act out because they’ve associated the class with boredom. The biggest thing I took away from today is that just these kids showing up is enough. The school is aware of what these kids want to do, and give them the absolute bare minimum, like a worksheet to fill in to pass the entire unit.
I have to brush up on my content knowledge as well, but that will come when I start planning lessons. I hope.
I’ve got until next Monday to decide if I want to drop out of the course without financial penalty. I still don’t really know, because it’s only been one day, but I’m just trusting that things will figure themselves out as they go along.
I’m not sure why you were paired with a CRT, you’re supposed to have a teacher who works there because they’ll end up evaluating you and also mentoring you as well.
The thing about CRT is that kids/students will act differently to a CRT, especially one they’ve not had before as the students will try and push the boundaries to see how far they can go.
Anyway I’m a little bit sad that you hadn’t gotten the proper set up to experience it properly and you only have a short time to make a decision.
Started placement today (kids were on an excursion yesterday) and I still don’t really know how to feel. The first lesson was with a CRT who had some science background so she still winged it, but told everyone that I would be teaching with her, even though I’m meant to just be observing. I ended up helping some kids out in the end whilst attempted to do the teaching. Some of the kids in the class have aspirations like sport and the arts, and instantly act out because they’ve associated the class with boredom. The biggest thing I took away from today is that just these kids showing up is enough. The school is aware of what these kids want to do, and give them the absolute bare minimum, like a worksheet to fill in to pass the entire unit.
I have to brush up on my content knowledge as well, but that will come when I start planning lessons. I hope.
I’ve got until next Monday to decide if I want to drop out of the course without financial penalty. I still don’t really know, because it’s only been one day, but I’m just trusting that things will figure themselves out as they go along.
how can you not know how to feel
just feel your feelings as they come with your experiences, don’t think about feelings in advance
seems to me you are doing awesome, you like what you do, you are very sensitive to the kids and their needs and capabilities
I think the kids are going to see how good you are and will be aces 🙂
I don’t know how to feel about my decision.
Thanks Seagoon :)
hugs
what are you feeling?
You can have more than one feeling at the same time.
Uncertain and fearful :)
But I’ve done quite a few exercises on tolerating uncertainty with my psych e.g. reminding myself that I can cope, observing emotions.
Thanks for checking in.
I’m not sure why you were paired with a CRT, you’re supposed to have a teacher who works there because they’ll end up evaluating you and also mentoring you as well.
The thing about CRT is that kids/students will act differently to a CRT, especially one they’ve not had before as the students will try and push the boundaries to see how far they can go.
Anyway I’m a little bit sad that you hadn’t gotten the proper set up to experience it properly and you only have a short time to make a decision.
Exactly! The mentors I’m meant to have are on LSL so I think I will ask another teacher in the staff room if I can observe their class.
This might not be too helpful but you could reach out to your uni for advice perhaps.
I’m not really sure of the right channels to go through but I can ask some friends tomorrow if you’d like.