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Yes.

I don’t believe any regular person is truly bad (with several notable exceptions). People who commit horrible crimes obviously aren’t just bad, they’re evil, but the average person on the vast majority isn’t “bad”. People make mistakes, people are misguided, people are products of their environments. What makes a good person isn’t the absence of bad acts, but the self awareness to acknowledge those acts feel remorse, and try to do better. Knowing nothing about you or your situation, OP, I believe that you don’t deserve ALL the bad things in your life. The best way to combat that is to try every day to think about how your words and actions affect others. Let someone cut in front of you in traffic if you’re not in a rush, smile at or compliment a stranger, hold a door for someone. Little things that make you and them feel good. It’s a selfish thing, but leaves a net good in the world, so it’s probably fine.

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Being aware of your own shortcomings and that you don’t like them is a gargantuan milestone, OP.

Most people are in extreme denial about who they are, and what their shortcomings are, and it leaves them very poor in regards to the potential to grow.

If you’re aware of and acknowledging things you don’t like about yourself: that’s actually a huge and powerful thing. You know what the things are about yourself that you that you want to improve.

Always remember, you don’t have to change completely overnight or anything, like you’re freaking Ebenezer Scrooge being visited by ghosts.

You can start by picking any one opportunity you see about yourself. “I don’t like that I (negative trait/action), so today I’m going to focus on (doing something positive regarding that trait/action).” Focus on that for a while… find joy when you succeed in being better. Don’t beat yourself up when you fail… just look at it as more opportunity to grow. Over time as you’re establishing positive habits, you can add new things to work on.

Your knowledge that you are on a journey of improvement and your determination are your superpowers.

I will say that if you decide that you want to grow for the better, definitely check in with the pros if you can, and not just random folks like me on the internet. But my point is, your self-acknowledgement is HUGE, and can be a tool you use to chisel your way to a better you. Don’t dwell on the past and keep beating yourself up about it… instead use it as your base to climb from. You’ve got this if you want it.

I’ve done some reprehensible things, but I don’t think I’m a bad person. Bit of a short temper but I try be good to everyone and not hurt or use people like I was. But if karma existed, you would say I was a veritable Genghis Khan

Bad is too subjective a term for it to be a useful descriptor. Cut yourself some slack. We don’t life in a just universe, there is no supernatural force making sure “bad” people get what they “deserve.”

Good things happen to bad people, bad things happen to good. Good things happen to good people, bad things happen to bad. The universe is random.

Cut yourself some slack.

Not by any moral framework I focus on, no, I’m not “bad”.

Is there anything you have done for which, if I had done the same actions, I would be irredeemable?

Is there anything that you have done, for which if I had done, you would expect me to jump into the volcano?

Feel free to judge yourself just a tiny bit more harshly than you would judge others. But only slightly. Give yourself as much of a break as you would give me after expressing remorse for my actions.

I think so, but others tend to disagree, so damn’fiknow.

I’ll have to take your word for it, but I have my doubts! Regardless, I feel like it’s better to focus on whether you are doing or have done bad things, than to worry about whether you’re an inherently bad person. You can always work to do better in the future, and to make amends.

I don’t necessarily think I’m a bad person and I have meet very few people who I think are "bad persons” even if people can act very badly in the moment.

And for you, I think it’s kinda bad for your mental health going around thinking your a bad person and that you therefore deserve that bad things happen to you. But of course it may very well not be a problem for you so you do you. Being able to realise that your not perfect and maybe even flawed in some sense can also be a good trait for someone to have. Too self confident people can be really annoying

That largely depends on who you talk to.

Christofascists think I’m bad. White supremacists, white nationalists, racists, anti-vaxers, neo-Nazis and Nazis, anti-choicers, anti-maskers, Covid deniers, vegan extremists, incels and incucks, Puritans, the US Taliban, magats and the anti-reality crowd, the convoyists, the Save-The-Children crowd and Queen Dildo and her ragtag band of morons, the rabid pro-gun I’m terrified of everything so I need a grenade launcher to buy donuts crowd, and others think I’m bad but so do the tankies, and trans extremists, the anti-gun crowd, and others who hate the first group. Just about everyone who lives in an echo bunker would think I’m bad.

I do things that many people think are bad but they tend to be the conflict what other people do mob but generally I think I’m a good passion and the people around me seem to think so too no matter where they lie on the preproduction, religious, or social spectrum.

No. A little selfish and lazy sometimes, but not what I would consider bad.

I’m certainly not a virtuous person but I don’t think I’m categorically bad.